So while I was at work tonight, I thought of an idea for a new blog series that I would like to do. The idea behind his blog is to get a more intimate look behind the struggles and excitement during my writing process for Life As We Know It (LAWKI).
For those of you who don't know what LAWKI is, it was on of my first (and so far my favorite) attempt at writing a dramione. What exactly makes this one my favorite? Well besides the fact that dramione is my OTP, the concept behind the story was to really make this pairing seem realistic and to fit it into canon events. I didn't want my story to just be another seventh year rerun where Draco and Hermione are head boy and head girl. I really wanted to push the boundaries of dramione and work within the framework already given to us by J. K. Rowling. My main goal with this story has been to make people who don't normally like dramiones to read this and say "Wow, I can really see this happening and I really like this story." And some how, some way, I began getting those types of comments on my story.
Now I can't say that my time writing this story has been completely amazing and without any hiccups. As a matter of fact, I've actually been working on this story since 2011! And guess what? It's nowhere near being completed! Prior to posting this story here, I actually had 18 chapters written and posted which came to just under 50K words. You might be wondering where the other 11 chapters ended up since I have only posted 6 chapters here so far.
Here comes the part of the blog where I begin to explain some of the struggles that I've had while writing this story.
So a few years ago, I decided that while I absolutely loved the story I had written so far, it did not live up to the full potential that I knew that it could. There was so much more that I could do with this story to make it even more realistic than it already was. And not only that, but I felt like I had originally rushed the friendship between Draco and Hermione and that I didn't give it the proper time and attention that it really needed to help add that missing element to the story. And so the editing process began.
And for awhile it went really well! I loved the new edits and new ideas came rushing in for the story. My love for LAWKI continued to grow and I was so excited to sit down and work on the story any chance that I got. Chapters 1-6 were edited fairly quickly and posted and I was super excited about my ideas for a brand new chapter 7. The idea I had was something that was not seen in either the book or the movie but was definitely something that I could see happening during this time in the story.
Now imagine my shock and disappointment that when it came time to actually sit down and begin writing this chapter I just couldn't get the words out.
For the longest time, I sat with a chapter that was not even half written. I had a general idea for the ending of the chapter and roughly how I wanted that portion of the story to come about but it was the beginning portion of the story that was giving me the most trouble. I can't even count how many times I tried starting the chapter and getting it to the point that I needed to. Nothing lived up to the expectations that I held for myself.
So now here I sit, 2 years later with chapter 7 still not completed (though it is much closer to completion then it ever was).
And the thing is, that after these last 2 years, I think I'm finally figuring out why it has taken me so long to write this chapter. I put so much pressure on myself to make this story great, to make it realistic, and to make those who don't normally love dramiones fall in love with this one. I let the excitement over a new chapter crush the process of just getting the words down on the page, no matter how bad those words might really be. So instead of letting my story blossom, I chopped it down by expecting perfection the moment it was typed onto the page.
So while I'm still struggling to get this chapter written, I have managed to make huge strides towards getting it completed. I'm slowly learning to accept the words as they get written instead of letting myself put a large amount of expectations and stress towards the chapter. I looked for inspiration in new places and all of the love and support that I have gotten from all of you as well as my amazing boyfriend at home has really helped to allow myself to relax and take it one day at a time.
So I guess, that's just Life As We Know It.