Ok, I love Roxi already! First, I just want to wrap her in a hug and tell her that EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY and that I'm ssure she's a lovely person who doesn't deserve to think so low of herself!
It's got to be a really tough spot for her to be torn between going to England for such a good job (that her dad wants her to take even) and wanting to spend the last of her dad's good days home with him. I like her spirit already! Wanting to go over and fight a war that's not really hers because she knows it's the right thing to do to and because she wants to make a difference! This was such a good introduction to her and her background. I'm excited to read more about her!
How. Have. I. Not. Read. This.
You know how much I love Roxi, and I know how much I love Roxi, so... better late than never, right?
I didn't realise how much I wanted Roxi backstory until I read this. But I still want more :P
I love how much meaning there is behind Roxi coming to England to help fight the war against Voldemort. But it's all just so sad :( She had such a hard childhood, but it's helped me understand why she's such a strong and hard-working person in the future. Blaming herself for her mother's death, and now losing her father, and an outcast as a child... It's heartbreaking.
"Maybe you'll even meet a cute boy there." AND HIS NAME IS DRACO MALFOY WOOOO!
I'm so so so glad I read this, and I can't wait to read the other stories in the LNW universe that I somehow missed :P Beautiful work, Deana!
Thanks for directing my attention to this, and I'm excited to get some background on Roxi that explains what made her decide to move.
Aww, her story is so sad! She hasn't had an easy life. I can't believe her grandmother blamed her for her mother dying in childbirth, that's so awful and totally unfair of her to say, how could that possibly be Roxi's fault? And just the loneliness that's followed her throughout her life, as well, I feel so sorry for her. Then, of course, her father's terminal illness. Stories about cancer always get to me in a personal way, and Roxi's dilemma about leaving when she doesn't know when the next time she'll see her father will be, and wanting to make the most of the days she has left with him, her hesitation is so understandable. Poor thing.
I did kinda wonder if the idea of her fighting in the war was something Roxi even wanted to do at all. She dreams of making a difference and she wants to go to England, but she also says she's screaming for a way out and that it's her father's war. Her father's dream for her, which isn't the same as her own dream for herself. The way I interpret it, Roxi had kind of a vague idea of helping the world, which was something she really wanted to do, and her father saw this one specific opportunity in a war and sees it as fulfilling Roxi's dream, but it's not what she had in mind. Like her motivations for being in the war are to make her father proud, and not as much about anything relating to hte war per se. Maybe she'd be a lot more interested in going to fight in a war when her own father wasn't on death's doorstep - the death in war makes it too real. There's a lot going on in her emotions about it and I think you convey this inner conflict so well.
It was nice that Monica showed up and that they could talk and heal a little bit together, how Roxi finally understands how hard it is for her aunt, and how Monica gives Roxi strength. They have a really wonderful relationship and I appreciated how Monica knew the right things to say. Except the bit about the 'nice sunset' haha, but who can blame her.
This story does explain why Roxi was so drawn to Draco's sad eyes and why she stared at him for so long in the chapter where she was introduced in LNW - she saw something she related to, she saw someone else who'd suffered a lot and she thought he looked the way she felt. There's a whole lot more depth to that scene now that I've read this.
This was a great one-shot and I appreciate the back story! Great work! <3
Oh, my goodness, Deana. This really punched me in the gut with feelings, truly. I wasn't expecting this story to be sad at all (I'm so bad at checking the tags and descriptions haha), and so it really took me by surprise, but in a good way. I definitely did not expect Roxi's backstory to be so sad, and in a way, that makes me like her a lot more for being strong enough to go fight a war. I'm looking forward to her chapters in Love, Not War even more now.
I thought the fact that her grandmother blames her for her mother's death is just horrible. No one should ever blame a child for their mother's death in childbirth, that's just ridiculous. So from the beginning, Roxi's suffered a lot. Add that to being an outcast in school, and to her father's diagnosis, and to the war that she now must fight in... Her life's been really tough.
I like her aunt a lot. I thought it was fairly sweet of her to say that Roxi might meet a cute boy, to cheer her up from the negativity completely surrounding her all the time. So this is why Roxi went over there, to help earn money for her family. What a girl. <3
(Slight tangent, but omg who in America decided to name the Massachusetts wizarding school "Salem Witch Academy"? Kudos to you for coming up with that hahaha.)
Love it, Deana! <3
Hey, Deana - I'm here for MAGIC!
I feel so bad for Roxi! Between her feeling responsible for her mother's death (because she died due to childbirth)( and the fact that her grandmother doesn't let her forget it), being called a jinx, being an outcast in her wizarding school in America (and I dig the 'weird twin' names Moth and Butterfly; weird twins always remind me of Russia thanks to a Golgol Bordello song), and her father's untreatable cancer, I can't believe she's even as sane as she is. The poor thing has lead a rough life.
And the only thing she has is her little oasis on the beachside, her only two friends, and her aunt. That's absolutely heartbreaking! What's even more upsetting is that her father had been the only one truly there for her by means of guidance. He's her only parent left. This is so sad, Deana!
It's very brave of her sickly father to be worrying about things like the second Wizarding War and Lord Voldemort, especially when his diagnosis said that he was incurable. AND he practically raised his sister, too! I'm sure someone like her father will be greatly missed, and not just by Roxi and Monica.
I can also see how choosing to go to England would be an overall impossible decision for Roxi. But being able to help in the war in any way would make her father proud -- and her aunt's right about those cute accents, haha!
So, I'm really glad I read this first because I'm planning on diving into LNW here at some point. I'm glad I got to sneak a peek at Roxi's backstory beforehand!