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Name: javu (Signed) · Date: 06 Feb 2019 10:08 PM · starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: III.

I love this story!! I love the trauma element (that feels weird to say) and how Lavender begins to recover from her experience. I liked how you didn't end it with that she's all better and everything's fine. You ended the story with hope. Hope that tomorrow Lavender will be stronger. Hope that tomorrow her fears will be less, the darkness will be less. Hope that she can face life with more courage than the day before. And the hope that she's not alone in this all. 

 

I want to be like, "Lavender honey, a couple months ago you were a shut-in and now you're at a party!" Granted, she's scared and nervous and anxious up the wazoo, but she's also come a long ways since everything went down! 

 

I felt like I could really relate to Lavender at the party. I may not have experienced PTSD, but I have been in a season (and still am ugh) where I dread get-togethers because I don't want people to ask me what I'm up to these days. It's an instant anxiety spike for me. Like Lavender, I want to lurk in the corners and hope no one notices me. 

 

I liked the twist of Michael Corner at the party. "You're not the only one who has scars." Agh, so good! I liked their conversation. Lavender doesn't need someone to tell her that everything is okay and that she's safe now. She needs someone to be with her and to tell her that she's not alone. That she's not suffering alone. And Michael just came in and spoke that truth and yeah. Also, I'm now shipping them :)

 

Alwynse. RvG February.

 



Name: javu (Signed) · Date: 06 Feb 2019 09:44 PM · starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: II,

This has become one of my favorite stories on the Archives, and I'm sad that there's only one more chapter to go. If you decided to write a novel about Lavender, I'd tots be your #1 fan.

 

I think what I'm really enjoying is that I can totally get into your writing. With some writing I'm reading along but there's always this sense of "I'm reading." But when I'm reading Blue Lavender, it's like I forget that I'm reading and I'm just in the story, watching everything unfold. 

 

The way you write Lavender's emotions are very real. I love reading realistic emotions and character behavior. Maybe I can't personally relate to Lavender's fear and dispair, but I can certainly witness it in a near tangible way. 

 

This chapter is a turning point for Lavender. It starts with voicing her fears -- which is admitting they exist and that they're real. "This is more than I have confided in anyone else. The words feel like they have escaped from my throat without permission and they hang in the air, echoing in my ears." But it's sooo good to do! Because sometimes we are in denial about something until we hear ourselves say it. "I'm scared all the time." It's only when we know our fears exist that we can begin to combat them. How would one know to fight something they don't know exists, yeah? 

 

I felt like my heart was blooming for Lavender when she began to think of the others who fought in the battle, that she's not the only one who's been suffering. That doesn't invalidate her experiences -- everyone deals with grief differently. But maybe focusing on others will encourage her to focus less on herself. And then she can grieve with others too.

 

Alwynse for RvG February.



Name: javu (Signed) · Date: 04 Feb 2019 10:43 PM · starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: I.

Sian, I don't want to write this review right now. I just want to go on to the next chapter and read it. But if I just go to the next chapter, then I'll just go to chapter 3, and it's a slippery slope of reading reading reading and not reviewing. And then you'll see that someone read your story, but you won't know that they found it so good that they just wanted to continue reading and reading and reading! So here I am, writing a review. (That was all a compliment, btw)

 

Okay, so wow. I think you write PTSD really really well. So well in fact, that you can expect a dm from me sometime tomorrow. Because PTSD (ish) is going to be incorporated in I'm not a Hero, and I haven't been sure on how to incorporate it. But reading this has given me so many good ideas! Lavender totally isolates herself. She's short with her family and friends, ignoring them, and just dwelling in memories and pain. She's unresponsive. She doesn't answer letters or house-calls. But she also desperately needs people! She wanted Parvarti to stay! 

 

I loved how you ended this chapter with her brother dropping the ball, running to her, hugging her and saying "I love you, Lavender." I don't know, it just gets me. He's so innocent and genuine. Children are so sincere (for better or for worse!) But there's something about children that can really turn a frown upsidedown. The things they do, without trying or knowing their effect, can really lighten someone's heart. I think Charlie reminds Lavender of fun and joy and laughter and that there's more to this world than pain and fear and death. 

 

Alright! Looking forward to chapter 2!

RvG February - Go GOLD!

 



Name: beyond the rain (Signed) · Date: 10 Jun 2018 05:34 AM · starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: III.

Hey Sian! 

Here's your not so surprising surprise!! I'm sorry I said I was going to review this wonderful piece yesterday, but I got a little distracted - so I finished the chapter thia morning!! 

You have taken me on such a journey, and I was here for every second of it. I can't remember if Lavender was killed off in the books as well as the film, but it felt so unnecessary to me, and I was really unhappy. Thank you for bringing her back to us!

I'm in awe of how you've captured Lavender's struggle so perfectly. It makes so much sense for her to stay in her house where it's safe. Not only that but as you mentioned throughout this fic, where no one can see her "ugly" scars. Your decision on making Lavender agoraphobic? Would you call it that? Well anyway, it's genius and you should be super proud of it. 

Lavender's characterisation overall is so on point! I still see the remnants of her hogwarts self, and especially in this chapter, when you talk about how she knows that she'd have squealed about the party. But both the reader and lavender herself are aware of her change. She was a pain in the books, but she still didn't deserve to be attacked and to be terrified of leaving the house. 

Aw, Michael. That was so lovely of him to offer to take Lavender home and to remind her that they're all suffering too. I like that there were no romantic motives there either - he was just doing right by Lavender as a friend (but if you ever decide on a michael x lavender sequel id be here for that 100%) . 

 

This story was so poetic and so realistic. I think you showed that as far as the progression of recovery is concerned, there are no small steps, and even things like acknowledging others outside of her comfort zone and going outside are so important. I'm proud of her! 

About the writing style itself though, every chapter had some beautiful imagery and like I said, it was wonderfully poetic. I aspire to write like you do, seriously. 

Sorry for rambling on so much, but all in all this fic was amazing and I've fallen in love with your writing style...so now im off to read more! 

 

Bex



Author's Response:

Hi Bex!  It was so exciting and sweet when you said you'd been reading this story, because it's probably the last of my stories that I expect anyone to pick out and I'm really pleased whenever anyone enjoys it!

 

I don't think it's ever definitively stated one way or another in the books, only the films, so I refuse to believe film canon and maintain that she survived after the battle.  She's such a fascinating character to explore.  I definitely think the view we get of her in the books, from Harry's perspective, isn't one that necessarily does her justice.  She might be girly and romantic and like things that other people don't like, but she's also brave and strong - I mean, anyone who fought in the DA against Umbridge and the Carrows and then in the Battle of Hogwarts isn't your average "airhead".  I can't imagine being attacked didn't have an impact on her, and although it was quite dark and difficult to write (and read) in some respects, I really enjoyed exploring her struggle and the way that she starts to make little steps of progress towards recovery.  It's slow, and difficult, but she has people around her to help, and of course Michael comes along at the end (spoilers: when I wrote this, my head canon had them ending up together.  I'm not sure if it's still the same, but it is for the end of this story :P).  

 

I'm really pleased that you enjoyed this story, and thank you so much for the lovely review!



Name: manno-malfoy (Signed) · Date: 17 Dec 2017 02:49 AM · [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: III.

Yay! I'm so happy to see her progress. I mean, god bless the friends who drag us out of our comfort zone when it's absolutely necessary. But sometimes it takes someone who is distant, someone who has no reason to pretend and whose actions are not fueled by guilt or a feeling of responsibility but just sincere understanding and empathy. Michael is so, so sweet and perceptive. Even when he trespasses past her beyond what she's comfortable with, he immediately notices and apologises.

 

As I've said before, your writing is absolutely stunning, but there was sentence that stood out to me in particular. "Jealousy is green like spring, but mine withered and died a long time ago." It's so beautiful and poetic, but also sad. And that's what really pack a punch.

 

The best thing about this chapter is that Lavender finally agrees to make plans with someone other than her brother and Parvati. And she even is aware enough of her surrounding to admire scenery and feeling enough to empathise when she sees that Hermione mirrors her in some way. They are all subtle, little things, but when someone is in a state like that, every little step is progress and matters. And I think that's what is so brilliant about this story. You're taking all of that into account and executing it skillfully. 

 

 



Author's Response:

Hi again!

 

I think Lavender progressing through the course of this story was what was really important to me.  I worried when I wrote it that it would be too depressing - that there was too much, all the way through the piece - and even though life can be like that sometimes, it's not a good story to read when there's no change.  But yes, having other people around you who force you out of your comfort zone when you really need it are wonderful.  They're the friends who are there and help you in ways you didn't know you needed helping.  

 

Michael was a character who, again, I hadn't planned to take as much of a role in this piece, but I loved writing him and his interactions with Lavender here.  He genuinely likes Lavender and understands some of what she's going through, and I like to think that he continued to help her, and that Lavender keeps up with the progress she's made in this chapter.

 

I'm so pleased you enjoyed this story!  Thank you for the lovely reviews!



Name: manno-malfoy (Signed) · Date: 17 Dec 2017 02:27 AM · starstarstarstarhalf-star [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: II,

Reading this chapter reminded me of something that I liked about the previous one but forgot to mention. I really like how there are flashbacks and they are all perfectly placed. Sometimes when people do that, it comes off a bit choppy, but  but that's not the case here. If anything the background helps make it easier to understand why Lavender is having such a difficult time recovering.

 

Another little personal thing that made smile was, of course, Charlie again. I,too, always said I wouldn't want to be a mother, but then you sit with me and you'll find that I talk about my little brother 50% of the time. And I'm glad that he continues to be the one prodding her to part from this state. So here I am finding things in common with a character I'm usually indifferent about, so yay!

 

And what made me even more glad was that she let Parvati see her and talk to her. And then Parvati finally managed to get to her, even if only a little bit by showing her that they've all been there and done that. I do genuinely hope that this was the push that Lavender needed. And I know better than to think it's an automatic thing. yes, it's a choice but not a switch you can flip. And that's also why I like that you've been writing this as the long, arduous, gradual process that it really is. 



Author's Response:

Hi again!

 

I sometimes don't realise how much I tend to include flashbacks in my stories, or at least write a non-chronological story, but I know they can be quite jarring sometimes and not really fit the flow of the piece.  I'm glad you didn't think they came across as choppy here.  I wanted to use them to show how much Lavender is still struggling with her recovery, and the way that she was still haunted by everything that happened and living it again and again.  Flashbacks seemed like a good way to do that.

 

Charlie is adorable, even if I say so myself.  He's so young that I don't think he can really understand how she's feeling, or what she's been through, but at the same time that's what she needs - someone who will just treat her as Lavender, his big sister, and not focus on everything else - it's all that gets her out of herself at first.

 

I really wanted to let Parvati into this story, and I'm glad you thought it worked when she arrived and finally managed to talk to her.  It's going to be a long road for Lavender, but it always helps when you know that you have friends at your side.

 

Thank you again for this lovely review!



Name: manno-malfoy (Signed) · Date: 17 Dec 2017 01:59 AM · [Report This]
Story:Blue Lavender Chapter: I.

Hey there, Sian! I'm back again for the winter wonderland. 

 

I'm slightly biased when it comes to Lavender Brown. As you've let her introduce herself, she did come of as frivolous with a head full of fluff. But I've been recently reading into unreliable narrators, and all I could think about was that Harry is the epitome of that. So in attempt to challenge the ideas about characters that I've extracted from Harry's point of view, I've been trying to read more about characters I'm not comfortable with. This is why admire that you started off by showing us that Lavender knew how she was perceived by everyone, and how she uses that to substantiate her belief that people would rather forget her and move on with her life, giving her more reasons to sink into her depression and isolation. 

 

I think youve portayed depression so well. It resonated with me personally on so many levels, so you really have done an impeccable job with that. 

 

Finally, as someone who has a strong bond with her little brother, the final scene in the chapter put the biggest smile on my face. Because I get it. I can never say no to him. But more importantly, I like that he was the one that managed to drag her out of her misery, even for a fraction of a moment, for a sliver of a smile.

 

Your writing style is as beautiful and elegant as ever. I'm so glad this is giving me the chance to read more of your work. 



Author's Response:

Hey Manno!

 

Ah, this story is one I wrote years ago, and I think in some ways I could do a lot more with it if I were to write it now, but I still have a soft spot for it.  Lavender is such an intriguing character to me, and I love reading about her because there's never two depictions that are the same.  You're definitely right about Harry being an unreliable narrator, and that she comes across as very frivolous.  But I've always thought that can't be an accurate description.  This is a girl who was prepared to stand up to Umbridge, and join an illegal group, and fight Death Eaters - even if she has interests which seem frivolous on the surface, she's got much more to offer than that.

 

I always find depression quite hard to capture, but when I manage to write it well I'm pleased - I'm sorry that it resonates with you, but glad that I managed to portray it accurately enough that it does, if that makes sense?

 

Lavender's little brother was a character who I hadn't even planned on including at the start of this story.  But when I sat down to write it, he just bounced into the piece and I loved writing about their relationship, and how much he means to her.  I'm so glad you enjoyed it, too!

 

Thank you for this lovely review!



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