I'm here with a review for the Magical Menagerie Review Event as well as the Gryffindor Red vs Gold Review event for January 2019! I always love a good exploration of a character's inner workings, so this seemed like a natural choice to read.
Oh. I admire you for taking on Severus Snape. I personally find him one of the hardest characters to write. It's even braver because you're dealing with such a complex character in such a short word count. Very impressive.
I really loved how you use the theme of green lights throughout the piece. It starts in the way the green flashes cause his dreams to slip into nightmares. It ends with the reflection of the green flash against Lily's green eyes. That was a really nice touch.
I think you captured Snape's duality really well. He's a man trapped literally in the middle of the fight between good and evil. No one really has his best interest at heart. He's being used and manipulated as much by Dumbledore as he is by Voldemort. In fact, I'd argue that at least Voldemort is straightforward about what he wants where as Dumbledore hides and twists his true intentions quite a bit. Somehow, you managed to convey all of that in a few sentences.
I thought it was really cool how you also made the word "Always" have some duality. It isn't just a straightforward declaration of love. It's weighted down with all of his regrets and frustrations and anger. I didn't know that line could really feel any more tragic, but somehow you've done it.
Good job! This was a lovely piece! I'll definitely have to come check out more of your writing sometime soon.
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So I had to stop on a Snape story, because Snape is my precious baby and I love him. Which made this difficult to read, because my poor love is suffering.
I imagine that he most likely did have nightmares like this often. Which is why I headcanon that he used Dreamless Sleep frequently. Like it shows here, he’s seen so much death, torture and distruction at such a young age, how could he not have nightmares?
I really, really loved the line of Voldemort and Dumbledore being heads of a double sided coin, and he being a tool for both of them. That is so accurate. Both of them were master manipulators, using people to further their own agendas. And both of them used Snape in pretty significant roles, neither caring if he lived or died. I mean, Dumbledore clearly didn’t have any sort of survival plan for Snape. He didn’t expect him to survive the war, which is why he had Snape kill him. Think about it. Without him leaking his memories for Harry, no one would have ever known he was a spy, and that Dumbledore had his own death planned out the entire time. So if Snape survived, he would have spent his life in Azkaban for murdering Dumbledore. Dumbledore knew this. It definitely makes sense that he would have felt that way about them.
The ending part with Lily killed me. Like, I know Snape messed up, and he knows he messed up, but the guilt he feels over her death is just heartbreaking. I can’t even imagine living with myself feeling as if I brought about the death of the one person I truly cared for in this world. Another cause of nightmares for the man. And the spin you put on “Always” here. Also heartbreaking.
Thanks so much for sharing this! I always love to see more Snape around.
Back for more #TeamSilver antics because, ObViousLY I am not going to turn down a good Snape fic ;).
There is something to be said about dreams. At first, you'd think that they could provide a perfect escape for Snape, as is mentioned -- normal wants and desires -- a way to, if only for an instant, forget that he's caught between sides of a war, subject to the will of a madman, seen as the bad guy, when that line is severely blurred. It's a shame, but not unexpected, that his life continues to haunt him, even through this time of escape, because how do you truly escape horrors like that?
I love your mention of duality because that seems to describe everything that Snape is. He's in this constant battle of sides and good and evil, where he is caught in this damning grey area -- caught up in purgatory in the battle between heaven in hell, so to speak. Because, even though Dumbledore isn't [quite] as mad as Voldemort, Snape is still subjected to his will. He lost being able to be his own person a long time ago.
And I love that he recognizes that he's caught in this personal purgatory because of the choices he made, whether the intentions behind them were good or bad or indifferent, they were still set into motion because of him. And your statement about what "Always" also means is nothing short of chilling.
You did an amazing job of conveying very powerful emotions into very few words, which can be extremely difficult to do!
Hey hey hey! Here for the brand new EvS review battle! I thought I’d review this drabble since they often don’t get as many reviews as longer stories.
Ooh! This was great! Severus Snape is one of my least favourite characters, but I still found this sympathetic look at him a really good read! I think it’s because he – or you, as the author – doesn’t excuse his behaviour in any way. He really is very fully responsible for his one true love’s death. I still felt a little sympathy for him, because horrible nightmares are horrible. It was so great to read a piece that managed to balance his guilt with the reader’s pity. And in so few words, too! Actually, I think the real power of this story comes from its few words. Every word counts, and it builds a scene that’s really quite emotionally powerful.
“… of normal wants and desires than slowly…” – than should be then
This was really enjoyable to read. Great stuff!