My name is Emily, and I'm so excited you've found this page. Please feel free to visit the forums and send me a PM, post on my profile, or post on my Writer's Journal page if you'd like to chat. I love getting to know other members and growing our community.
I'm a twenty-something, U.S.-based book person! I've been writing Harry Potter fanfiction since 2006, originally at HPFF and now at HPFT. I'm slowly transferring my better stories to this site, and I hope you'll be patient with me as I do so. Feel free to ask for updates if you're wondering if something will be edited and posted here! And if you've read any of my work and/or want to ask questions or leave me comments, please visit my Writer's Journal topic!
On HPFF, my penname was DracoFerret11, and my username on the forums was DarkRose. Maybe we knew each other?
Here, my username on both the forums and the archives is Renacerá, which is Spanish for "she will be reborn."
I’ve made my Magical Menagerie goal to read and review every Dramione story on the site! So...here I am!
This was a really sad story! It reminded me a lot of one I’d written years and years ago about Hermione passing away from cancer. It’s an interesting thing to consider: that the magical community can cure colds and broken bones and things in a second, but they still can’t do anything to prevent Muggle catastrophes. Draco being killed by being hit by a car felt like that to me.
I really felt Hermione’s pain in this story. To lose someone you love is never easy, but it’s especially painful when that person was taken in such a senseless way. I actually lost a really close friend when he was hit by a car while riding his bike, so this story resonated with me especially poignantly.
I do love that Hermione will go live with Scorpius and her grandchildren. I hope that that helps her heal. It seemed so natural that she was his mother, even though in canon that’s Astoria. I like that this story was able to achieve that naturalness.
Finally, special shout-out to your portrayal of the specifics of grief: the way that certain things remind you of the one you’ve lost, the depth of that emptiness in your heart, the desire to start new somewhere else, etc. It was all very realistic to me.
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Seeing you like this is unbearable. Maybe…I could invite you in. Just for a cup of tea.
No. It isn’t meant to be. Still, I almost give in when you continue speaking.
inspired by the song Snuff [by Slipknot]
I've made it my goal to read and review every Dramione story on HPFT! So here I am. :)
First of all, I'm so impressed that I found a story that was posted on the very first day of this archive's existence! That's so wonderful, and I'm so glad Dramione was represented that day!
I absolutely love the characterization you've written here. You've done such a good job capturing the depth of Draco's grief and conflicting emotions. He honestly feels so real in this story, despite not fitting exactly with his canon characterization (which we only see through Harry's point of view, obviously). One of my favorite parts about Draco/Hermione as a ship is that you have the opportunity to explore Draco's characterization in more depth, and I think you've definitely done that here. There would be so much trauma after the war, and it's always good to see that acknowledged in fanfiction.
I felt terrible for Draco throughout this. I honestly was disappointed in Hermione for not being with him when she had the chance...but I also understand the fear that she was probably feeling. It takes a lot to willingly go against your friends and to be vulnerable and try a new relationship. But still, Draco was in a bad place and their tryst didn't help...
The plot of this was so good, and as I briefly mentioned above, your ability to communicate the emotions throughout was wonderful. I'm really impressed and really enjoyed this.
I'm here for the 2018 Niffler Gifting event, and I'm so happy to leave this story a review! So away we go! —
I love how you took the funny "Drapple" theme that had floated around eons ago and turned it into such a poignant story! I'm a huge fan of Draco (that's what drew me to this story!), so it's always nice to see explorations of him as a character of depth instead of just a 1D villain. He really did go through so much at such a young age (as many of our canon characters did), and I love stories about that.
Your characterization of Draco was really lovely. I think you did a great job balancing his youthful hopefulness with his disillusionment. And knowing the scene that directly follows this story—when Draco doesn't give Harry & co. up to his family—is awesome! What a great "missing moment."
Overall, you did a really good job with this little story. I loved the descriptions and depth you gave something that could've easily been comedic in another author's hands.
Thank you so much for this review. It was a lovely surprise to see a review from one of my older stories. It always brings me joy when someone picks up something that is on the second page of my AP as that always tends to get forgotten.
I am glad you liked the characterization that I did with Draco, he is an interesting character and there are a lot of layers to him and I love exploring the layers of characters. I admit that when I went into the challenge I didn't expect things to go as poiniant as they did but the tale just came out as it did and I figured it was worthwhile to take a different turn on a silly theme. I also had fun lining it up with canon, I think it gives added weight to the scene in the books and helps make Draco a sympathetic character which I feel that he is. Most people just see him as a slimy villain but he's just a teenager who had a lot of pressure placed on him and he's trying to make the best of what happened to him and the poor decisions he makes.
Thank you again for the lovely Niffler Gift!
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all I wanted to do was fall like a dying star. but those eyes stopped me.
Hi again Hayden!
How have I never reviewed for you before this event???
Seriously, this was amazing! I absolutely love your writing. You're so talented! And I can't thank you enough for writing about my favorite pairing.
So, I really want to start off the full review with a bunch of compliments about the quality of the writing in this story. Honestly, you captured the mood of this story perfectly with just the writing style. I've had depression my whole life, and I could see my own experience in Hermione's here. It's so much harder to deal with mental illness on your own, and having her friends all leave at once is understandably devastating.
I was so surprised when Draco saved Hermione from her suicide attempt and even comforted her. Since this is post-war, there's so much trauma that they've both been through and I really can't wait to read how that affects their interactions and how they relate to each other. Wonderful job on the characterization of both of them.
I wonder what Draco said to her! And did he cast a spell to knock her out so she wouldn't try to jump off the tower again? I can't wait to read on.
Finally, I just want to explicitly say that the emotions and mood of this chapter were flawless. I mentioned that above, but I really need to make that perfectly clear. You're a great writer and I can't wait to read on.
Wow, Hayden. Wow. Do you have plans to continue this story? Because I desperately want to read on.
I haven't seen this writing style often (the short sentences broken up onto separate lines), but I really, really like it. You utilize it so well in order to convey the moods and emotions going on in the different characters' experiences.
I absolutely love how you wrote Draco and Hermione in this chapter. Draco's compassion for Hermione is so beautiful and such a strong testament to the changes he went through after the war. I really think you've taken the opportunity to write Post-War Draco and run with it. Great job. And Hermione was so wonderful. Her not wanting to see Harry seemed like a very authentic reaction to what she's experiencing.
So, mood/tone and characterization, amazing. And somehow you are also able to give perfect sensory details to capture the scene in the hospital wing—the feel of the pillow under Hermione's head, the sound of the footsteps in the ward, etc. How, how, how do you do it?
Finally, I wish I knew what Draco had been about to say at the end! "If only"...what? I'm so intrigued. :)
I hope you continue this story! If you do, you've got a reader in me!
Great job, dear.
Choices don't come easy. But they need to be made.
It’s me again, here to review for the Magical Menagerie event!
First of all, let me say that I totally admire the fact that you’ve written a second-person point of view story! I’ve tried before, but I’ve never felt confident in it. Addressing the reader/a “you” in particular feels really tough to me for some reason.
I also liked the fact that this was from Draco’s perspective! I practically always (maybe literally always) write from Hermione’s side of the story, so it’s refreshing and interesting to see Draco’s side.
I liked that he was so introspective about his past with being prejudiced and how he’d matured away from that. It did seem a little too self-aware for a teenager, but that’s not awful. The only part that I thought didn’t quite fit with the story, though, was when Draco “forgot” about Voldemort for a second. That doesn’t seem like it would be likely to happen, given Voldemort’s impact on him and his family.
I also like that Draco chose Hermione! I’ve written a lot of stories where he chooses her over his “pre-determined” fate with the Death Eaters. And as a Dramione fan, I’m sure you also love that trope. I know I do! I wish he’d had a choice like that in canon. I like to believe that maybe after the war, it was easier for him to be a better person.
Anyhow, good job with this story! Well done!
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- A Susan Bones Story -
Oh my gosh, yay! Representation! I have a couple of poly friends who would be SO happy to see a story about their identity anywhere. This is so cool. And so well written!
I love that you captured an aspect of the poly experience that isnâ€™t always examined: it can be hard and isolating to feel penned in by societyâ€™s expectations of monogamy. Especially when somebody (in this case, Susan) loves a non-poly person. It sounds so heartbreaking and hard to deal with. And you really captured that well.
I love that this conversation happened with Luna. I have so much appreciation for that lovely girl. Sheâ€™s so accepting and honest and genuine. I feel like sheâ€™s exactly who Susan needed to talk to at this moment. And I hope in my imagined future for them, they can be friends and bond even more about this even if they donâ€™t end up dating.
I think integral to this story is the sheer humanity in it. The emotions Susan was feeling and Lunaâ€™s patience and empathy really resonated with me. And itâ€™s just lovely how you portrayed their conversation. Not on-the-nose, but real and straightforward and just...ahhh, so well done!
Great story, dear! I commend you!
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"I had to do it. At least once."
Hello there! I've made it my goal during the Magical Menagerie event to read and review every Dramione story on the HPFT archives! So here I am! :)
Ahhh, you did such a great job with this story! I have to start by complimenting the plot. Although it seems like a simple premise—boy like forbidden girl, they share a "moment"—you take that and run with it. I love that you were able to keep most of Draco's and Hermione's canon traits in this story and use them to the plot's advantage. Hermione doesn't suffer fools, so it's no surprise she'd lose her patience with Draco and tell him he had ten minutes to bother her if that meant he'd go away afterwards. And I loved the slap. Of course, I ADORED the kiss! But the slap is great too. :D
Really good job with the characterization, as I said before. You were able to keep them recognizable but still work that through the story. And in some ways, this could even fit into Half Blood Prince seamlessly, since at the end Draco reminds himself that he has to go back to his real life and his mission. He can't live in a fantasy when things are so serious in reality.
I just love this version of Draco. I always think that if Draco were to be "reformed" after the war, it would be because of the influence of people like Hermione. Ahh, if only it were canon. ;)
Thank you for a great read!
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For moonbaby11's Up For Grabs Challenge and the Every Word Counts Challenge
It’s like making love to a ghost.
The other person disappears in the act of becoming part of you,
and you are left with yourself, pure and raw and complete.
But there is someone else inside you, incorporeal but undeniable.
Review time for this year's Snowball Fight/review battle!
So, I don't know if I've ever read a James/Sirius story before, but I honestly don't know why I wouldn't have! This was really lovely! I'm honestly floored by your command of language and poetry. This read like a song or a poem or a prayer. It captured me with the feelings just below the surface. I don't know how to describe it, but I really felt like I was flying with Sirius with this sort of...desperation or rush driving me. I read this quickly, and then slowly. It was like the first time I had to get through it, had to know what I already knew he'd find...but then I had to go back and really drink in the feelings and emotions. You did an amazing job with them.
I love your characterization of Sirius and James, as subtle as it was. I feel like you really captured the dichotomy of James' dual life. I also adored the last few lines ("The home you made with her is ashes. The corners we hid in are gone. The shadows within me remain. Will the ghost of you still find your way there?"). The part about ashes for some reason really struck me. There's so much that our Marauders lost that night that is easy not to think about, but this story brought it front and center.
All-in-all, this was fantastic. I honestly don't have constructive criticism (I wish I did so this would be more helpful!). Wonderful job!
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I am always holding your hand.
Hi Sam, dear!
I'm here to leave a last-minute Wish List review (but also just a review for you, because you're wonderful)! This story seemed like it hadn't received enough love, so I was happy to come by! I need more sapphic stories to appreciate in life, so I really should just delve into your whole AP. ;)
So, although I'm not a huge fan of Lavender (probably because she got such a bad rap in canon), I found this story really stunning. I love the depth of friendship you showed between her and Parvati throughout their school years, even with just one sentence or so for each year. And the growing love was so evident...so the loss at the battle felt even heavier.
The emotions you wove throughout this story were fantastic. I felt all of Parvati's love and loss and feelings of what might have been. It made me really hope that Lavender could recover at some point and be with her through their joint healing process.
This was really well written! Great job. :)
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It is Dean and Seamus' anniversary and things do not go as planned. That's kind of their thing.
I wanted to come by and leave you a couple of reviews to congratulate you for winning 'Puff of the Month (and also Head Student)! So, here's the first! :)
Honestly, I clicked on this the second I saw the banner. I've become such a Dean/Seamus fan in recent months (even though I actually pair Dean with Lee Jordan), and I basically love reading any story about them.
And this story was no exception! It was so cute and genuine. I loved every minute of it. Dean and Seamus have such a healthy, balanced relationship, and there's obviously so much love between them in this story. Dean comforting Seamus and knowing how to encourage him despite his mistakes with the tart was so precious. And Seamus being so hopeless at certain types of magic is so believeable! ;)
I especially liked that you had the brief reference to the war at the beginning of this. When Dean comes home and sees smoke, he is immediately thrown back to the days of the war, and that really rang true to me. I like that it took him a few minutes to calm himself down and believe that everything was okay. I could've even believed he'd need longer, if ever you decide to edit this—though, don't misunderstand me, it's basically perfect as is.
Overall, I think your characterization was wonderful; the plot was adorable; and the story as a whole was really sweet.
I always love the chance to read older stories and revive them in the author's memory, so I hope this review has done that for you.
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The war is over and the Dark Lord has been defeated, but as the Golden Trio return to Hogwarts to complete their seventh year, the scars of the war remain. Hermione has been appointed Head Girl alongside Draco Malfoy. With an unknown threat lurking in the dark, is it possible they can build a new path that leads them all to something brighter?
My darling Madi!
After so many promises to read LMM, I'm here! And I'm so, so happy to be! I can't promise I'll read quickly, but I can promise I'll review every chapter as I do!
This first chapter is fabulous. You've done so well introducing the inciting incident and showing how it's going to affect Hermione and Draco throughout this story. And I love the plot you've started!
The flashback scene is so powerful and so well written. It shows the impact of the war and the trauma that our characters experienced. I have a similar mid-battle Dramione moment in my story "Savior," so I loved that scene here. I think you especially did a good job with Draco's final words to Hermione about locking this memory away to keep them both safe. It shows the stakes that they're facing.
The present-day moment in the ice cream shop also shows the changes that Hermione and Draco have faced since the war. I can't wait for them to come together. I'm so excited.
Your characterization so far is fabulous. You've kept similar to canon, but made them your own too. And I know you'll keep evolving them throughout this story in fantastic ways. Great job showing Hermione's own interest in her situation with Draco--it encourages my interest even more!
I'll read on ASAP! Wonderful first chapter!
Honestly, Madi, I'm so excited about this story. Fantastic first official chapter! You did such a good job showing the complexities of life after the war. I'm glad Hermione has her parents back, and I'm happy she and her friends decided to go back to the school. As you know, I'm a sucker for Dramione tropes, and I couldn't be more excited about the Head Girl/Head Boy plot! You've introduced it in such a fantastic way, and I love the added element of Hermione's missing memory. I can't wait to see what she has to do to try to recover it (if that's what she chooses).
I love your characterization of Draco in this chapter. He wants a second chance, for whatever reason, and he's willing to put himself out there to get it. I do think he'll be unlikely to grovel to anyone to get them to respect him, but I like that he's asked Hermione specifically for her help.
She's such a gem here. I think you've balanced her personality with her experiences from the war really well. And I love that she had a handout for the prefects about PTSD and other trauma effects. Absolutely wonderful. Though I did wonder: does the wizarding world have effective mental healthcare? Do they know about trauma disorders and mental health conditions? I suppose they must in this particular story, but I wonder about canon. Hmmm.
Great job here! On I read!
Another wonderful chapter, Madi!
Great job starting off with our tier-two characters (Harry, Ron, Ginny, etc.)! You definitely showed a sense of where Ron was at after the war by how he reacted to Draco. It made a lot of sense from where we know Ron's been as a character. I'm interested to see how he and the others play into this story.
So, plot things!
One hundred seems like a lot for a new class of first years! Is that because many of them didn't start the previous year when Voldemort was in charge of Hogwarts? If so, I might add a line about that, since 100 really stood out to me as a reader. You also mentioned that they were divided equally, twenty-five to each House, which seems a little unrealistic. ;)
I love that this is a Heads' Dorm story! I'm obsessed with that trope (as you know from Collateral). And though I've heard of seventh-year dorm stories, I've never read one, so I'm very excited to see how the seventh years interact in their own dorm. Maybe we'll get some interhouse mingling!
Following from that: it surprised me that Hermione and Draco have their own personal house elf! And I was especially surprised that Hermione didn't protest her "working for" them. But I'm interested to see how Draco's kindness towards Starry will affect how Hermione sees him.
And, of course, particular compliments for him almost walking in on her in the shower. XD
Great job, again! On I read!
P.S. - Fabulous little hint there at the mysterious person slipping in through the hidden entrance!
How can I be so hooked on this story?? I know I don't have time to be bingeing this right now, and yet, I can't resist. :)
So, obviously we have several exciting things going on here in terms of plot and characterization. First, we have Draco's mysterious heirloom that Starry helps him find, and I'm quite curious to know what that is. Then we have the Heads discussing literature, which I love. I obviously have to know how Draco knows so much about Muggle authors. I don't know if that will ever be explained, but I'm picturing him sneaking away to libraries or something when he was a kid. :D
I love their entire talk about books! There were a couple of parts that made me laugh—like when Hermione subconsciously refers to Pride and Prejudice as "recent" and Draco's extended monologue about Mr. Darcy—but for the most part, I completely appreciated their discussion. I will say that there were moments that felt a little too on the nose though (e.g. Hermione talking about the ridiculousness of class expectations in Romeo and Juliet; and the talk about love, which felt a bit abrupt this early in their "friendship").
Your characterization of Draco and Hermione is still really solid! I'm interested to see that they seem to be getting along so well already! Everyone else seems surprised too. (Especially 'cause the other students just can't stop staring. XD)
So, this was another good chapter! One more piece of constructive criticism. ;) In the lines: "We were blithely unaware of the looks shared between students of all ages around us. No one noticed the movement in a stone knight statue's alcove." there's an issue with point of view. Hermione wouldn't be aware what she was unaware of. And while you offset the scene of the mysterious figure sneaking into the castle before, this last line is told as if it's part of Hermione's narration, which makes it a little confusing as to what she knows/doesn't know. Does that make sense?
I hope so! Great job, here! On I read!
Another great chapter!
This one moved us in a direction to explain some of the characterization choices thus far, and I love that. You did such a good job acknowledging the weirdness between Draco and Hermione and working through the moments of awkwardness in a believable way. I really appreciated the fact that things weren't completely seamless here. They've got quite the history, so it would be weird if it was too easy for them.
So, Draco's changed. (Yay!) But I do wonder exactly why and what's prompting him to want to be compassionate and good. Is it just the after-effects of the war and what he went through? Or is there something else that changed his mind about the pureblood supremacy he was raised to believe?
The tour of the grounds was a nice chance for Hermione and Draco to shine in their new Head positions. You did especially well with Hermione's dialogue throughout that scene! And I loved Draco's enthusiasm about Quidditch. It's nice for him to have something that makes him happy.
I can't wait to see how their meeting with McGonagall goes. Great job again, and I'll read on soon!
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This morning, Septima is everywhere.
Rolanda Hooch/Septima Vector
I did not expect this story, and I love it even more for what it is.
After my shameless Deanmus read, I had to move on to this. Stories about queer women are too few and far between. This read made my night.
I absolutely love what you've done here with language and emotions throughout. At the beginning, I was feeling this loss and confusion, and the repetition and resonanace of Septima in Rolanda's life felt so heavy and painful. It felt like a story of a breakup that truly hurt Ro. But then I read on.
Your ability to write two such realistic characters is amazing. I completely understood Rolanda and her feelings and experiences and desperation to change her emotional circumstances. I've been where she is and could see all the things I experienced in what she was experiencing. And Septima was so perfectly awful. I've met way too many people exactly like her—manipulative and condescending and cajoling and just...awful. Ugh. She's so real that I hate it. Why do people have to be that way?
The confrontation between Rolanda and Septima is flawless. It shows such a strength of character in Ro and such a beauty in her revival and escape from a toxic relationship. I loved it. I basically fist pumped the air at the line, "But I cannot stand here and let her rewrite our history when I also hold a quill." FREAKING PERFECT.
I've been thinking a lot lately about the toxic relationships I had when I was younger, and this story was so cathartic for me. I absolutely adored Ro escaping her demons—both internally and externally—and the feeling of freedom she had at the end. God, I hope she keeps that.
The writing in this was stunning. Your characterization was beautiful. The emotions were real. I loved it. I loved it. I loved it.
Thank you for writing this. You're wonderful.
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Daphne finds Astoria in an abandoned corridor just before the Death Eaters storm Hogwarts.
“He’s on the wrong side." She raised her wand. "And so are you, little sister.”
What a dynamite beginning to this series! I don't even know your Astoria yet, and I literally love her. The line that made me Team Astoria, 100%, was: "Life wasn’t about valid excuses for cowardice and inaction; it was about doing your best to make a difference." I was basically cheering.
So, let's start there: characterization. I loved your Astoria unconditionally. I loved that she's a Ravenclaw. I loved that she has this strong moral compass. I love that her brother is a Slytherin who she looks up to. I love that she stayed. I honestly love just the fact that people stayed, especially underage kids (and all the Hufflepuffs over 17! because we are AWESOME.). So that was a fantastic start. Her voice is wonderful too, and I'm excited to get to explore her world.
Daphne is such an enigma here. I've never read stories with her, let alone stories that cast her as an antagonist to Astoria. So I'm really interested to see where you go with that.
Their interaction was so tense and realistic. I've been at odds with people before, and I've felt these exact feelings facing them down, alone. Not knowing what to say or do, your thoughts racing. I get all of that. So that was awesome.
The only minute CC I might add is to engage the setting more. What's the mood like around Astoria? Are the crowded hallways loud? Can she hear the battle beginning outside? Do people seem afraid? Etc. etc.
All-in-all, though, this was an awesome entrance into this world, and I can't wait to read more. Great job!
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Some scars last a lifetime.
Winner of round one TidalDragon's 'Knockout' challenge at HPFF
Ahhh, so much wonderful Greengrass interaction! I feel like I'm a part of this family right now, and I wouldn't have it any other way! Your characterization of the siblings is amazing, and I'm so attached to all of them as characters. They're all just so compelling!
I know you mentioned in a PM that you were sorry this was still in third person. I assume that's because you're switching it to first person eventually? I'll definitely reread when you do if you'd like! This is fabulous as is, though.
The only error I saw (though, maybe it was just Daphne not caring enough to remember) is when the sisters are talking and Daphnes is justifying forcing Astoria to leave the battle. And she says, "You were sixteen," but that's not accurate according to the other stories (which say that Astoria was fifteen).
I loved the depth you gave Astoria's entire sixth year in this story, despite it being skimmed over so quickly. The detail about the window being kept open crushed me. And the emptiness of their dormitory. And her fear of the dungeons. It was all so well placed to show everything Astoria has gone through. I loved that.
I also just love the emotions you were able to put into all of Astoria's actions, even running from Daphne and showing up at Brendon's. She's so broken right now, but I can tell that she's strong and she'll move forward in time.
This was really a wonderful story for showing the dynamic between the three siblings (and even somewhat their parents). I liked it a lot.
On to more stories!
There are darker mirrors than Erised in the Wizarding World.
1st place in AditiDraco95's 'Death Eater's Victim' challenge at HPFF
Hello, my dear!
I can't believe I'm done with your current Drastoria fics! But now I get to move on to reading your other stories! I'm leaving the Johanna ones and the Tedoire ones for a while and bouncing to some others, so here we go!
This was really written lovely...ly. I wasn't sure what to expect when I saw that Dorcas was the main character, but this was really nice. I feel that you did a good job portraying the struggle of an unfamiliar character. I'm not 100% sure waht she was experiencing, but it was still really moving.
Definitely the thing I have to commend you on the most here is the emotions that you portrayed throughout this story. I could really feel Dorcas's fear and desperation, as well as her anxiety and compulsive need to get away from the mirror. That was all very real for me. We've talked about V for Vendetta a few times, and this gave me some Valerie-vibes akin to her imprisonment.
By the end, I assumed she was being held captive by Death Eaters, but I wasn't too sure. I'm still not, but I don't know if that matters too much. She was clearly experiencing something, and I didn't really have to know what.
This was good, and I liked it a lot! (Still missing my Draco and Astoria, but shh. That's a me problem.)
On to more fics!
He and I, we were infinitesimal.
For Connor & Tanya
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So, this is the first James/Regulus story I've ever read, and it made me desperately want to search out others. This was so incredibly well written. It was stunning and beautiful, and I really, really loved it. There are so many wonderful lines that you crafted, but this one stood out: "I felt something in my stomach clench and thud, like a stone falling off a window-ledge." I literally know that feeling precisely, and that you put it into words is so amazing. So that's my first compliment: the writing in this story is STUNNING.
Secondly, the characterization that you portray for both James and Regulus (as well as Lily from James's point of view) is wonderful. I love that you captured James's mix of guilt and acceptance over what he had done to Lily. I love Regulus's uncertainty and loneliness and desperation. I really wish I could've read Regulus's letter to James at the end. I feel like I would love to see how he thought of their relationship. Lily was also wonderful. James knew she would be so hurt to learn the truth, but I feel like she also has so much compassion that I would love to see her own reaction to this.
The epistolary style was such a great way to portray this truth that James lived. I think it was really important for readers to see him looking back and justifying why he did what he did and how it's affected his life. I definitely don't think what he did was RIGHT -- cheating is definitely not okay! -- but I think a story like this needed his explanation in his own words.
Overall, I think this story was wonderful, and I'm so glad I found it. I think it will be the first I add to my Favorites list! Thanks for writing this so I had the pleasure to read it!
Hey there, Emily - thank you so much for dropping by! :)
Ahhh thank you so much! :) I think there's ironically quite a few, haha - I think they're a bit of a niche side-pairing to Wolfstar, so there's a fair few Marauders fics out there with them in it (though I did have to search to find them, so they're not always easy to find). Honestly, I didn't really know about the pairing but Tanya (WriteYourHeartOut) and Sam (SamMalfoy) were talking about it on the forums one day and I thought... challenge accepted. So I wrote this that weekend and posted it - which was a super quick turnaround for me, and a really fun challenge; not least because I really like James/Lily and didn't want to simply split them up or find some quick fix out of that relationship. So that made it a bit more complicated.
I really loved writing both James and Regulus in this. James is one of those characters who in fandom I think can often be kinda similar from story to story and I wanted to show him in a bit of a different light: he means well, but he really doesn't always do the right thing, and his big heart and open-mindedness lead him into huge amounts of trouble in this. But his honesty was kinda the most fun thing to portray - it's harsh and pretty brutal, really, because it's a very fond - if guilty - confession. Regulus... was a litte more difficult, honestly, because we know less about him - but I wanted him, and James' relationship with him, to be almost opposite to Lily. Regulus is cold, rude, patient, almost manipulative in how he sort of makes James make the first move - and, despite knowing about James' relationship with Lily, still goes for what he wants anyway. But he's definitely lonely and suffering and James is super confused, and it's all really a big mess :P
Lily - yea I think she'd be angry and hurt, but I think she'd sort of understand why he didn't tell her. Because it's not just his secret - it's Regulus' secret, and it would affect his friendship with Sirius as well as his relationship with Lily - but it's also him trying to understand himself and his polyamory and bisexuality - and that's difficult and confusing and hiding it isn't right, but it's at least an explanation of why, yk?
Yea, I really didn't want it to come off as an excuse - because that's just not fair, yk? He was in a relationship, he should have respected that - but it's genuine, really, and it's his honest account of what happened. Epistolary just seemed to work for it, tbh - also I was in a bit of an epistolary phase, haha, so it was easy for me to get into the voice that way :P
Ahhh thank you so so much for the lovely review and the wonderful comments - it was such a pleasure to get! Thank you! :)
The war never stopped; it merely paused for breath when Voldemort died. Draco never thought he'd see thirty, never mind survive the war. Most of the time, he wonders why he even bothered. Then he remembers Hermione soaring in the air on a broom, racing against her own shadow in the moonlight. There are some things even Death cannot touch.
It's been my goal for a while to read and review every Dramione on HPFT, so here I am!
I have to start by saying that this feels like a totally unique concept. Most Dramiones follow a general plot outline, but this is already completely off the map, and I commend you for that! It feels deeper, somehow, and I'm really interested to see where this will go.
This chapter was a phenomenal way to begin what feels like a very broad story. You showed us where Draco is at the beginning, and then we go backwards to see how he got there. And, god, does that "getting there" seem like a nightmare. The resonant war after the "actual" war feels like an echo, but somehow even worse. All of the political implications you wove through this chapter to show how Fenrir's "revolution" took hold make so much sense in an awful way. I can completely understand how an uprising would happen after so many people began feeling like they were the ones being "targeted" by the government. It's a terrifyingly real concept.
Your Draco feels so broken and lost, and that crushes me. I love Draco as a character, so I can't wait to see more of him, but I also know there's not much of a chance that there will be joy for him in this story which is hard to digest. Either way, I'm absolutely reading on and reviewing.
Wow. Honestly, this is amazing. I'm floored by how complete the world you've created is. Of course, it's absolutely horrifying and post-apocalyptic, but it's also amazing.
This was a fantastic chapter for showing us how the initial rebellion was stopped (though, we obviously know from the beginning of the first chapter that the peace doesn't last). The depth of trauma in the different characters was so evident. The fact that they can't even really remember what peace was like is so jarring. I loved the moment when Draco realized that. The line, "Draco had always taken his place in history for granted - he was a Malfoy. For the first time, he realised that taking history for granted may have been a mistake.", really stuck with me. It's such a succinct way for you to show why his opinions on the conflict changed and why he was willing to try for peace. (And thus, how his relationship with Hermione grows, I assume!)
I loved that the Order's leadership included Fleur, Lee, and Augusta. That would be a kickass team, and I love that you chose them.
I think the dynamics you portrayed throughout this chapter really show the depth of the conflict and the concessions that both sides will have to be willing to make to save the wizarding world. I've never read a story so politically developed, and I'm very impressed.
I can't wait to read on.
Ugh. This is amazing. I'm pretty sure this story is going into my favorites by the end of it, even though I know that you're going to break my heart.
So, again, the plot. It's so good. It's so original. And I can see all the nuances for how this very tentative peace is going to fall apart, and that crushes me.
Draco and Hermione are both so well characterized. You've captured their trauma so well, yet there's that briefest hint of hope still in them. I think they would be better off if they didn't even have that...it's just going to make them hurt more when everything falls apart...but their growing friendship is really lovely, and you've done a great job writing it.
You've perfectly captured the horror of their world throughout this chapter. The absolutely gut-wrenching image of Hermione setting a sack with Goyle's head in it on the table, and then just carrying on talking about work like nothing has happened...wow. There is such absolute horror in that scene that floats just below the surface. Stunning.
I can't wait to read on. I'm so invested.
Annnnd, I didn't doubt it at all. I knew, I knew you were going to break my heart. *sobs*
This was absolutely stunning. You took me through so many emotions in such a short time, and I absolutely lovehated it. The beginning was so full of joy and hope. The race, their kiss, the thoughts that maybe, just maybe, they could build something together from the ashes of everything they'd lost.
The line, "Safe dreams," felt so apt. Even as a "mistake," it made perfect sense in their world. Draco and Hermione have faced so much that "sweet" dreams don't feel like much of a possibility, but safe...they can hope for safe.
Your pacing is flawless throughout this story. When things kept moving and Dolohov was assassinated, I could feel we were nearing an endgame that would leave our dear Draco heartbroken. But then he's proposed as the Minister of Magic, and for a very brief second I could feel hope for the future that he and Hermione dreamt of.
And then, of course, the end of the chapter.
It was beautiful. It was such a poignant, shattering moment. Imagining the sky above them "promising a future Hermione would never see" is so heavy. It absolutely destroyed me.
On to finish...